After school was over, I got myself home to Tucson as fast as humanly possibly. This past year was one of the most exhausting years of my life and I was feeling pretty drained by the end of it. Going home breathed life back into me, and made me feel like myself again. Being with my family and friends always brings me so much happiness and love and I am forever thankful for all the special people that are a part of my life. I realized a lot of things in that week I spent in Tucson. I found that during the year I often forget how important it is to do things for myself; things that make me feel content, and happy with my life. It is so easy to get completely caught up in the madness of school, and this past year I definitely let it get the best of me. Losing yourself in your work and the people you are around is not always a good thing, in fact it can be very unhealthy and exhausting. So now I am making every effort I can to do things that bring me joy and better me as a person. This realization, however, did not come to me without a little help from a special someone.
A friend from high school and I reunited over my visit home, and he opened my eyes to how important it is to express your true, inner feelings. He allowed me to completely let my guard down and confront many of the issues I had packed away deep inside me. I realized through the experience that I preach to all my friends and family how important it is to express yourself and your feelings, yet I was taking all my insecurities and turning a blind eye to them. I was too afraid to admit that I may be weak in any way, I wanted people to see me as a strong woman, who had it all under control. But it is okay to not be perfect, in fact nothing in life can ever be perfect, and I can't keep striving for a goal that is ultimately unattainable. With that in mind, my goal for this summer is to do things that make me appreciate what an amazing and blessed life I have, and top it off with being happy with who I am and all the beautiful things that I have to offer to this big world.
So I have made myself a list of 50 summer to do's:
1. Go to the beach as much as humanly possible
2. Run in some sort of marathon
3. Road trip to San Francisco
4. Go home with Casey to Lake Tahoe/Take Casey home to Tucson with me---if you haven't already caught on Casey and I are attached at the hip, in fact Rach called us MicCasey the other day, thought that was pretty clever and a good representation of our relationship :)
5. Cooking with the girls! I have to learn how to cook, the time has come.
6. Balboa Park
7. Hiking
8. Take photos everywhere I go
9. Positive journaling
10. Write at least 5 new songs (Check out my music at http://www.myspace.com/micaelamartinez5890)
11. Read every book on my summer reading list---I am currently reading The Color of Water By James McBride, it's a must read!
12. Watch every documentary I can on Netflix
13. Watch movies---I am tired of being that person who never knows what movie people are referencing, I'm going to be a movie expert by the end of this summer, you just watch!
14. Go to Six Flags Magic Mountain and Raging Waters with my favorite family of girls
15. Surprise my family again with an unexpected trip home!
16. Learn how to play guitar, and write a song
17. Paint ceramics at Color Me Mine
18. Go to a jazz bar
19. Play at an open mic
20. Go out with the girls for a crazy night of karaoke
21. Eat slower, really enjoy my food
22. Volunteer at the Huntington Humane Society
23. See Sara Bareilles in concert
24. Wine tasting in Santa Barbara
25. Go on a picnic at the park near my house
26. Have a summer bbq at the house
27. Water balloon fight!!
28. Beading
29. Go dancing in LA
30. GO TO VEGAS!!
31. Plan a getaway trip with the girls that involves eating, sun bathing, sipping drinks poolside, and partying!!
32. See a beautiful garden of flowers
33. Plant flowers in our back yard, AND actually take care of them
34. Since we can't have a dog or a cat :( I will settle for a fish
35. Take a visit to Michael's and make some cool crafts
34. Take dance classes
36. Go to zumba, pilates, BIKRAM YOGA (Gotta try that, I've put it off for way too long), and meditation
37. Take an acting class
38. Write and record a duet
39. Horseback riding
40. Camping
41. Water skiing, wake boarding, and jetskiing all in Tahoe with the Caninos, duh!
42. Bike riding on the beach
43. Watch a sunrise and a sunset
44. Go to a museum, and find a piece of art that I truly connect to
45. Face my fear of guns and go to a shooting range
46. Go fishing
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22. Volunteer at the Huntington Humane Society
23. See Sara Bareilles in concert
24. Wine tasting in Santa Barbara
25. Go on a picnic at the park near my house
26. Have a summer bbq at the house
27. Water balloon fight!!
28. Beading
29. Go dancing in LA
30. GO TO VEGAS!!
31. Plan a getaway trip with the girls that involves eating, sun bathing, sipping drinks poolside, and partying!!
32. See a beautiful garden of flowers
33. Plant flowers in our back yard, AND actually take care of them
34. Since we can't have a dog or a cat :( I will settle for a fish
35. Take a visit to Michael's and make some cool crafts
34. Take dance classes
36. Go to zumba, pilates, BIKRAM YOGA (Gotta try that, I've put it off for way too long), and meditation
37. Take an acting class
38. Write and record a duet
39. Horseback riding
40. Camping
41. Water skiing, wake boarding, and jetskiing all in Tahoe with the Caninos, duh!
42. Bike riding on the beach
43. Watch a sunrise and a sunset
44. Go to a museum, and find a piece of art that I truly connect to
45. Face my fear of guns and go to a shooting range
46. Go fishing
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It's my goal to do one of these a day, so I'll obviously have to add to this budding list. Suggestions are more than welcome :) Well here I go...onto an amazing summer!
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